I guess I’m back. I took a month off and didn’t really miss it while touching grass but then I broke my toe and waded back into online BS.
veganhomecooks.com is still open for registrations if anyone is interested. It is a pixelfed instance but to be honest, pixelfed is even more beta than Lemmy. Maybe next try will be akkoma or mastodon, vote below on what VTC should try next.
I’ve been hiking and cooking so I post mainly about that now. Also some memes heh. How are you all doing? What is new?
My ex/close friend necked himself. Didn’t die cause his wife found him in time and being a med school dropout has advantages.
Been reevaluating a lot of shit since then. I think I’m going back to grad school, I realised if I lost him (and you don’t go from trying to kill yourself to life being peachy. It’s still very day by day) I would have basically no regular contact with people smarter than me which is just depressing.
Who knows if I’ll succeed this time, life is in a better place but my body is a complete unreliable wreck. Still we shall see.
In other news evaluating the risk of moving my ulnar nerves surgically. Very small risk of paralysis, large (~10% risk) of needing salvage surgeries. Scary stuff, expensive too. OTOH being able to hold a book again would be cool.
Sending you good vibes in this stressful time ✨
I’ll be right, they are the ones that have to go through the hard shit. People you love nearly dying does tend to make a lot of stuff just seem not important though.
Also a massive stressor preceding this was the tech ai layoffs to eviction pipeline so I’ve ended up even more angry at landlords and other capitalists. Like this shit is playing out everywhere so some dickhead can get more spare homes. I don’t even know if the rich are human in a recognisable way.
Sorry to hear about your friends struggles, I hope they are able to recover and find the meaning we all deserve in the world.
Hope you feel better too and find success!
Thanks, I do too. He’s far from perfect but he is a good man and he brings a lot to the world. It’s crap to see him struggling so much and in such dire straights because of a brief interruption of his ability to improve the profits of shareholders.
I was handing out propaganda with an academic, and apparently I made an impression as he sent me an extremely helpful email today with a variety of positions on offer. That is defs a confidence boost and it’s great to have help there.