As the title says, today I managed to call my friend and basically have my coming out. As expected he was basically like “nice. Got a new name or something I have to be careful about?” (I currently havent decided on anything yet) The talk felt good and it devinetively helped a little bit with the hate for myself and I no longer feel absolutely terrible all the time. I still feel kinda terrible due to the feeling of having a hole ripped in my chest, but it devinetively got better after that.
Im not that worried about this that much. My other friends will accept it with ease. They will probably make a shit ton of jokes about it, but tbf I would do too. My family shouldn’t be that hard too. The biggest problem I have will be getting the courage to implement who I Am into every day life and having to “out” myself to all those groups of people that I know, but dont know that good, that I would be able to talk about a lot of the intimate details. Its not that I will face backlash from those persons (at least not from those where I would actually mind having to cut them off), but me being to scared to actually change something.
Edit: there might be one or two friends who I may have to cut off, which would be kinda ass, but it wouldn’t mean the end of the world to me.