I can’t explain it fully but since couple of years I have this constant feeling that something big is about to happen that is going to change everything.
It’s a bit like being a WW1 soldier waiting in the trenches for an inevitable attack that doesn’t come.
I have adhd so I know the ‘waiting mode’ and this is sort of similar. Honestly I just want it to happen already so we can get this over with no matter what it is.
There is this atmosphere that no matter what you plan for or what you intend to do will ultimately not matter because of some future big changes.
It’s really annoying and only fully cured temporarily by brain muddying amount of weed or to a lesser extent various absorbing hobbies. Or making many hasty and bold decisions in spirit of “now or never”.
Maddening stuff to be honest. I hope whatever must happen will get on with itself already and rather sooner than later.
This is still how you would feel if your anxiety was caused by things like vitamin D deficiency or thyroid having a bad day. If someone with „irrational” anxiety could think about the reason of their anxiety rationally they wouldn’t have anxiety in the first place. This is not to say that there are no reasons to feel anxious about the state of things in general but this is still worth keeping in mind.