I can’t explain it fully but since couple of years I have this constant feeling that something big is about to happen that is going to change everything.
It’s a bit like being a WW1 soldier waiting in the trenches for an inevitable attack that doesn’t come.
I have adhd so I know the ‘waiting mode’ and this is sort of similar. Honestly I just want it to happen already so we can get this over with no matter what it is.
There is this atmosphere that no matter what you plan for or what you intend to do will ultimately not matter because of some future big changes.
It’s really annoying and only fully cured temporarily by brain muddying amount of weed or to a lesser extent various absorbing hobbies. Or making many hasty and bold decisions in spirit of “now or never”.
Maddening stuff to be honest. I hope whatever must happen will get on with itself already and rather sooner than later.
Yes, but I’ve felt this way for quite a while. It’s not recent. I think it has to do not only with personal family stuff, but also national and world systems, and most especially climate change. All stuff that has been going off the rails or threatening to. Also ADHD here.
By the way, this movie may be of interest to some of you, as it deals with this kind of feeling (a little more dramatized and specific for the story, but it portrays the feeling of impending doom fairly well, I think): Take Shelter (2011)