JRaccoon

I don’t have an answer for you, but I can absolutely relate. Some people say something like “find a job you love, and you’ll never work a day in your life.” But for me, it doesn’t work that way. I like my job, have awesome coworkers, and always look forward to the next week. But obviously I’d still rather be doing things I enjoy more. You know, playing that latest video game, finally finishing the Lego set I bought three months ago, hanging out with friends, etc. Two days out of seven just isn’t enough time to do all that, which leads to anxiety about optimizing the little time I have.

One thing that has helped me somewhat (and I know I’m very privileged to be able to do this) is taking every other Friday off. A two-day weekend versus a three-day weekend makes a huge difference for me. I’m actually considering switching to having every Friday off. But then ofc, there might be the dilemma of having the time to do the things I enjoy but not enough money for them :(

Assertive dom. When they make me feel I really don’t have any other options than to submit.

I’m a switch and brat and subbing doesn’t always come naturally for me. In the beginning of a scene I have a tendency to start ‘topping from the bottom’, even if I consciously try to avoid it, and the dom can’t let that happen. Once I manage to let go, I do absolutely enjoy it and can enter a deep subspace, but I can’t do it without the dom really pushing and “breaking” me first. It’s kinda hard to explain and I don’t even fully understand it myself but at least I know some other top-leaning switches I’ve talked to have had similar experiences.