
not much but there were a few instances where someone tried leading me into dommimg them and it felt- strange. i could mimic what i know doms do, and try to make them feel nice, but none of that came naturally to me, and by the end i was exhausted, glad it was over, and definitely not horny
there was certainly discomfort to it, but mostly from the part that i guess the person assumed i was a switch (i do like teasing my fellow subs) and before i realised what was happening - they acted really subby in front of me and had me trying to dom them. i took the chance because i did want to try and see how it felt, but the lack of negotiation & assumption i’ve consented to that rubbed me the wrong way
i like kink because i get to let go of control, doing the opposite felt rather unintuitive
i don’t know what advice i could offer, i fear that’s up to you to think about. but though i may be an Internet stranger - i wish you well, and hope you find a way forward that allows you to thrive, or at the very least i hope you have a lovely day so you can rest and regain some strenght