Hey I saw your other post, and I think this was a good place to post this. Anyway this is my response:

Here’s a bit of a harsh truth. Most of the advice you’re responding to can’t work if you’re alone. It’s very hard to enjoy hobbies or make progress in therapy if your needs aren’t being met. (although if you have access, I would recommended medication for anxiety if that’s a problem for you. But medication won’t cure depression or trauma, it’s impossible if you don’t have support)

It’s really hard and really scary, but I think you should try to find people you connect with.

I promise you, there ARE people out there who are genuinely good, who will care about you and accept you for who you are, even if it doesn’t line up with the world’s expectations.

Look for others who don’t fit in with society. They tend to be the most interesting, the most genuine, and the least judgemental.

And give yourself some credit for surviving what you have, but realize that there’s a chance your life could be better in the future, and it’s worth it to keep trying, even if it’s the hardest thing you ever do.