Yes, all my life. Even on any sort of social media, including here. I have long ago stopped trying to “get in” which used to feel pretty soulcrushing when I was younger. I stick to my neurospicy immediate family and partner now
At work, hobbies etc. I am always seemingly very well liked, but they don’t allow me into their actual thing, not all the way in at least. If I leave or stop going to something, nobody ever asks where I went. I had a workout center I went to for almost ten years with several women who I always chatted with before and after the classes, they had intimate little parties and stuff, I was never invited to those. But they were always very friendly with me. So it’s odd.
At work my co-workers had a party that they did invite me to and I went. Then they made plans there for going together to a march a few months later which I never got a message on, went to the march with my partner and saw the group there who happily all said hello, but had decided to not include me or invite me. So it keeps happening.
Before I understood I am neurospicy I always just thought that I must feel somehow hard to approach or am just different somehow, sometimes I thought I am somehow broken. These days I get it, sort of. But it still feels very lonely at times and I have no real friends to turn to because of it. The few I had growing up have all been scattered into the winds and it is what it is.
Yes, all my life. Even on any sort of social media, including here. I have long ago stopped trying to “get in” which used to feel pretty soulcrushing when I was younger. I stick to my neurospicy immediate family and partner now
At work, hobbies etc. I am always seemingly very well liked, but they don’t allow me into their actual thing, not all the way in at least. If I leave or stop going to something, nobody ever asks where I went. I had a workout center I went to for almost ten years with several women who I always chatted with before and after the classes, they had intimate little parties and stuff, I was never invited to those. But they were always very friendly with me. So it’s odd.
At work my co-workers had a party that they did invite me to and I went. Then they made plans there for going together to a march a few months later which I never got a message on, went to the march with my partner and saw the group there who happily all said hello, but had decided to not include me or invite me. So it keeps happening.
Before I understood I am neurospicy I always just thought that I must feel somehow hard to approach or am just different somehow, sometimes I thought I am somehow broken. These days I get it, sort of. But it still feels very lonely at times and I have no real friends to turn to because of it. The few I had growing up have all been scattered into the winds and it is what it is.