I can’t explain it fully but since couple of years I have this constant feeling that something big is about to happen that is going to change everything.
It’s a bit like being a WW1 soldier waiting in the trenches for an inevitable attack that doesn’t come.
I have adhd so I know the ‘waiting mode’ and this is sort of similar. Honestly I just want it to happen already so we can get this over with no matter what it is.
There is this atmosphere that no matter what you plan for or what you intend to do will ultimately not matter because of some future big changes.
It’s really annoying and only fully cured temporarily by brain muddying amount of weed or to a lesser extent various absorbing hobbies. Or making many hasty and bold decisions in spirit of “now or never”.
Maddening stuff to be honest. I hope whatever must happen will get on with itself already and rather sooner than later.
Feeling of impending doom is a common symptom of anxiety. It could be caused by anything from hormones being off to an actual impending doom.
Not to mention, the political rhetoric for at least 10 years has been very much “things are falling apart!” I mean, fear has been the greatest motivator for voters for a long time. It’s a weapon used against you to keep you obedient and scared.
Now, does that mean things aren’t going wrong? Of course not. But that feeling is very much fostered by the people with money because it’s useful to them. Add to that, the growing number of non-money people sounding the alarm over things like climate change and late stage capitalism.
But if it helps, think of it this way: the money people don’t actually want things turned upside down. Because that disrupts their money. And the timeline for events like climate change are longer than “any day now.” So, something to think about.
I don’t think it depends on any of my internal physiology so to speak. This is some external factor that has been ruffling up my inner harmony increasingly as the time goes on. I don’t think I could even precisely pinpoint the start of it but it was like 2016-2020. Very faint back then compared to the pronounced and easily identifiable noise today.
Judging by the speed of change whatever lies in front should happen in about 3 years at maximum.
This is still how you would feel if your anxiety was caused by things like vitamin D deficiency or thyroid having a bad day. If someone with „irrational” anxiety could think about the reason of their anxiety rationally they wouldn’t have anxiety in the first place. This is not to say that there are no reasons to feel anxious about the state of things in general but this is still worth keeping in mind.