I can’t explain it fully but since couple of years I have this constant feeling that something big is about to happen that is going to change everything.

It’s a bit like being a WW1 soldier waiting in the trenches for an inevitable attack that doesn’t come.

I have adhd so I know the ‘waiting mode’ and this is sort of similar. Honestly I just want it to happen already so we can get this over with no matter what it is.

There is this atmosphere that no matter what you plan for or what you intend to do will ultimately not matter because of some future big changes.

It’s really annoying and only fully cured temporarily by brain muddying amount of weed or to a lesser extent various absorbing hobbies. Or making many hasty and bold decisions in spirit of “now or never”.

Maddening stuff to be honest. I hope whatever must happen will get on with itself already and rather sooner than later.

  • ProfHillbilly@lemmy.worldEnglish
    12·
    2 days ago

    My GF feels this way. She thinks that because she is brown that it will not be good for her. I understand as best as I can. I know she feels that because I am white that I don’t fully comprehend how it will turn out for her or any other brow person. I do. I am panicking inside all the time. I try to remain calm for her but it does not seem to be working. Her newest idea is to dell all her stuff and get an RV stay on the road. I have tried to explain to her how unsafe that is from a strategic safety point of view. That her cell phone is being tracked at all times just by pinging the towers. She is in deep panic mode and I can’t help her. But you are right. Something is going to happen and I don’t know what it is or how to prepare for what is coming.

    • bugg@lemm.eeEnglish
      5·
      2 days ago

      The last part is a bit alarming and her plans don’t fit the current situation whether she’s a minority or not. Unless she’s actively in jeopardy of being targeted by ICE, then she probably isn’t immediately at risk.

      I think we are all bound on path for war. But preparation for that still needs to be realistic. It’s always good to ask ourselves what are we preparing for in the immediacy. Right now is a time for building friendships and strong community networks. Maybe planning for food shortage (but not famine) if in a food desert. It’s reasonable to consider locking down owned and disconnecting from techbro corporate run entities (hey, we are already on the fediverse).

      But roaming in an RV is well beyond the current climate unless you guys are actually crossing with Homeland Security regularly or something. She’s right to worry and her fears are not unfounded but the solutions are disconnected. There might be a little more at play there.

      Either way, I wish you both peace and safety. We all deserve personal security and refuge even in the worst of times.