Ranting here because I don’t have anywhere else to do it. It’s been 4 days and these people are already driving me up a wall. Some are very kind, others are just taking my groceries, not doing their dishes, constantly starting shit, and just generally being nasty.

Came in, the fridge was full of moldy and rotten food that had been in there from last year. Nobody had thought to throw it away. The dish situation has gotten so bad that the house manager is now going to throw away all of the actual dishes and replace them with paper plates and plastic forks which I hate in my soul. I can’t bring any of my nice kitchen stuff here because these fuckers will just abuse it then get it thrown away by just not cleaning it. Dish doesn’t get done? It goes in the trash. House manager’s rules.

I bought groceries yesterday, nothing too major, came up to about $50 and it should be enough to feed me and a few other people in the house who are struggling financially for the week. Some bitch stole a can of beans all to herself yesterday. So now the tacos I planned on making later this week? No can do. Then proceeded not to clean the pot. She’s also the person whose only interactions with me are asking me if she can have my food. And when I give her my food, she takes so fucking much that other people end up not getting any. Also always starting shit.

Go to take a shower for the first time since I’ve been here, and the water is fucking HOT AS FUCK. Now as many of you know, I’ve been in kitchens all of my adult life, I can handle some heat. This water was too hot even for me, I could barely take a shower in it, my head is minorly burnt from this water. I think this is what set me off so hard.

Then I go outside barefoot to get some sunlight (not smoking anymore!). Big mistake, there’s a shit ton of broken glass all over the place nobody thought to clean up or warn me about until I stepped on the broken glass.

There are also meeting requirements in this house, so I have to go to 4 AA/NA meetings a week. No big deal, I already planned on doing this while I was in rehab. Problem, my home group is a zoom group and they only count one zoom group a week, so now I gotta put up with the bullshit local meetings with no car. At least there’s busses here, unlike where I lived before this, but I don’t know them at all, and I can’t just leave the house to learn them until I’m paid up and working.

It’s not all bad though, some of the people are really nice, and I do need the extra accountability to stay on top of my recovery. I don’t know, maybe I’m just getting irritable because of PAWS, maybe I just need to stay in my own lane and things will get better eventually, but goddamn if this isn’t annoying right now